miracle years

by Alanna

Dear little one,

today is your birthday.

this year my hopes for you were more than wishes

because i am certain that you are being loved

and that your birthday was celebrated

and that you were tucked in to sleep by loving hands.

on your half of the world, by now you will be sleeping.

on my half of the world, it's raining cold

and my heart hurts 

because it still longs to be with you

i dumped coins into a machine at the bank

took notes on teaching techniques as i prepare to move far away from here

and all the while i wondered 

what am i doing so far away from you?

i wanted to be with you today, like every day before

but most of all i want you to know that

you are treasured and dearly loved.

this day marks the miracle of 4 years of your life. 

God has done good things in all of them.

today my heart aches for you, but I am thankful

for the precious gift you are

happy birthday little one

i love you with all my heart

always